so, today i cam to the realization that only i can make myself happy! i have the ability to wake up everyday and look at it as a begining with new oportunities. I know it is very sad that it has taken me 23 years to figure this out and dont worry im sure i will forget in about a week and wake up and expect something else do the trick! But as for this moment i am going to try to have a better out look and just accept the things and people that i can not change and just deal with things as they come! Bring it on life because im ready!