sleepy in love

My poor little guy has his days and nights mixed up! okay poor me!!!! Im so sleepy but i can handle it! I tried to keep him awake for a while today to maybe switch the pattern but it just broke my heart to see this sleepy sleepy boy in my arms crying because me and his daddy were picking on him. So instead of continuing to try to pry his little eyes open i let him sleep, and now i am tired and he is ready to eat and listen to someone talk to him. I am tired but i am just in awe and so amazed at his innocence to be upset! Maybe it would be easier to switch myself to his schedule! ha ha Well i do have to report that i am getting better at changing his diaper and he has not peed in his face today! We did have a close call but i caught it in time that it just got in his hair, on his back and his belly! Hopefully one day we can just make it in the diaper! I love my life!!!

Canyon Scott Bownds
born 9-1-09
6lbs and 20 inches long

I never truely loved till i saw this babys face! I love my family and i love my husband but this thing i feel is just different! I now know an unconditional type of love. I now know how my parents feel. This little boy could never do anything to change my feelings for him EVER!
He is my world, my heart and my little boy. I am so blessed to have him in my life and i feel bad for those that dont get to see him every day! He makes my heart smile and my eyes water with overwhelmning joy every time i look at him. It may be the hormones or just the greatfulness i feel inside that makes me cry tears of joy daily. Everyday i pray, and thank God for placing Canyon in mine and Dustins life. My world has change and now things are put into a happier perspective! I will never look back and wish things had turned out differently. My only regret is waiting this long to meet the man that would change my heart! But God had perfect timing to place little C in my life when he did! I am looking forward to growing, laughing and learning with my new little heart living on the outside of me! Its weird to see your heart in the hands ofsomeone you barely even know but love so much that nothing else mastters! I love my life, my family and i love you Canyon!!!

love,

me

im blessed

i am the luckiest girl alive!! (today) well i am out of the hospital and i have been staying at my moms house. she is the most amazing person i have ever met and i love her so much! She has been such a blessing in my life, she has taken care of me and kept me company and made me realize that i am never alone.. shes always right there beside me. I love you mom, you have truely helped me more than you know and i love you so much! Thanks for putting up with me and helping me through this hard time in my life!

Also my sister sarah came into town and her daughter has made my weekend!!! I get very lonely on bed rest but i had the best company ever this weekend. Gracie crawled up in bed with me every day this weekend and stayed right by my side for HOURS watchin our favorite cartoons! Shes so sweet and i enjoyed her company.

This maybe my last weekend pregnant!! Wahooo im so excited but there is still alot to do. One thing that i checked off the list today was pictures. I wanted to have a few pictures taken of me and Dustin as a couple for the last time before the new adition arrives. Sarah got some really good shots and i am excited to put those in Canyons scrap book.

Even though i spent 98% of the weekend in bed i had an amazing weekend with my wonderful family, and i appreciate all of yall and love you very much!

lovely weekend

so this weekend was my one year anniversary!! oh my gosh i can not seriously believe we made it this far!! he got me a beautiful necklace, an apple tv and a gift card for pretty panties! I'm guessing my pregnant panties are not doing the trick for him! well i got him an xm radio and took him to the Hilton for a night without barking dogs! it was very interesting! i have never been one that anyone has called SEXY, but hey a girls got to try! i put on this cute little outfit ( don't forget I'm 8 months pregnant) and tried to prance around looking somewhat sexy... ha well i tried to take a sexy bite of a strawberry covered in red syrup stuff from the top of a cheese cake and as it was falling off the pop sickle stick and rolling onto my chin, down my neck and all over my outfit i then realized that I'm just not that kind of girl!! I'm more sporty spice NOT sexy spice!! ha ha it was so stinking funny and a little embarrassing! ha ha maybe one day ill take a lesson in how to eat a strawberry to turn a guy on but i very seriously doubt it will be as funny!

Today my mom is going to my sister without me once again! Oh i am so sad but am looking forward to them getting me some great things from market! I hope they have fun! Love ya'll!

oh i feel like pooo today!! see i have been CRAVING orange juice and my little guy has jokes already!! i want these things and am thinking hmm he must want them to if the craving is so extreme! well he dosnt!! he obviously hates orange juice and anything else that is good in the mornings! oh it makes me so sad! im so ready for him to be out so i can be normal! (ok i know i will never have a normal life again so hold the comments!) but i would love to eat and only taste it once, run again , sleep on my tummy, and wear outfits that dont have elastic in them!! is that too much to ask? well im 32 and a half weeks and i am counting down the days till its over and i have my prince charming in my arms!!

i love you canyon but you have to give me a break.. PLEASE!!! please be a good baby so i can appreciate all i have endured with you in my tummy and be grateful that you were so rotten inside of me because you are planning to be the sweetest non crying always breathing baby out here in mommys world! i love you!
mom

booblah

yea yea so last mondays post was sooo inspiring.. blah blah blah! no im kidding im still blaming everything on myself but i am soooo over being pregnant! seriously this pregnancy thing last way to long! im 31 weeks now and i sure hope this little boy comes early, not too early but early! my goodness i am the fattest roundest thing in the world! ok i know im not but i feel like i am!! and yesterday i caught my husband checking out this cute little blonde sitting poolside! i could have cried and beat the crap out of him all in the same second.. that little episode led to my bad dream that he went to the nasty bar and i beat the tar out of him! needless to say i woke up from that dream so angry that it has affected my whole day! well when i have this baby and get bikini thin for the first time in my life im gonna go to the pool and yell out on a bull horn "hey big fellas.. look over here.. umm can you put come sunscreen on my back? im having a hard time reaching!" then im gonna flip my long blonde hair and make dustin watch from the car! ha well maybe not that exact situation but you get the hint! i think when the wife gets pregnant the man should have to constantly have an eyelash stuck in his eye so its uncomfortable to see!! haha well it makes me laugh! oh gosh life will be so fun when canyon gets here!

CANYON,
come out come out.. i want to hold you in my arms and stare at you all day. Im so excited to meet you, i love you and im getting your room ready so anytime to arrive is a good time with me!
love,
mommy

so, today i cam to the realization that only i can make myself happy! i have the ability to wake up everyday and look at it as a begining with new oportunities. I know it is very sad that it has taken me 23 years to figure this out and dont worry im sure i will forget in about a week and wake up and expect something else do the trick! But as for this moment i am going to try to have a better out look and just accept the things and people that i can not change and just deal with things as they come! Bring it on life because im ready!

Small but enormous

We went to the doctor yesterday and Canyon looks great! His heart is functioning wonderfully and he is practicing breathing, which is great for development! He weighs 2 pounds and 14 ounces... so small but my love for him is so enormous!!! How can you love someone that you havnt even met yet this much?? I dont even know what he looks like! I hope he loves me back because i have been through hell with this little man! He is totally worth it and although i wouldnt want to... i would do it all over for him!!! I just wish the sickness would go away and stay away! But bonus for today is i get to go get my hair done!!! woowoo!! have a good day all!

Week 29

So, this is pregnancy week 29 for me and im sooo ready for it to be over!! But this is a very exciting week for me!! I dont get to do much since i am on bed rest but i do have a busy week. This week i have a doctors appointment and i love doctors appointments because every week i get to see my little man! Most women dont get this but i guess when your high risk your some kinda special! Thats the only plus about all this is i get to see him in there and make sure hes doing wonderful in there weekly! Also i talked my doctor into letting me go get my hair done!! So super exciting! I havnt had my hair done since i was like 16 weeks.. Forever ago!!!! My roots are like 5 inches long now!! Im so excited. Also this saturday is my baby shower!! I am so excited about this because its going to be amazing!!! Even if noone shows up it will be great. I have the best sisters (yea me and sarah like eachother again) and the bestest friend ever! They are going to make this a wonderful shower! I can't wait to see how its gonna turn out! I will post tomarrow with update on how much Canyon weighs this week! I bet hes a big boy or i hope so, then i might have an excuse about the weight gain!!

I am so excited about the fourth of july!! woohoo my husband is going to get me a lay down lawn chair so i can lay outside tomarrow night and watch the fireworks!! This will be our first married and in the new house fourth so i will be curious if our road will be busy with fun colors in the sky! Oh and im gonna have dustin make me some deviled eggs!! yummm my favorite! such and exciting weekend! I will turn 28 weeks pregnant this weekends and thats way better than 23 when i started all this in the house boring bed rest! i can't believe i have made it this far without pulling my hair out! only 8 weeks to go and my canyon will be here! i can't wait to feel that feeling of knowing that no matter what this little man will love me instantly just as much as i love him! But it may sound silly but i am sooooo looking forward to laying on my tummy again! Oh it has been so long. Today while i am home i am researching my next vacation! Well off to the lake in my mind.... have a happy 4th of july!!

par-tayyyyy

ahhhhhh! im am seriously in a bad mood. today i have been on bed rest for over a month and im am so over it! i want my baby to be healthy and happy but seriously the days keep getting longer and all i can do is prepare my speech for next weeks doctors appointment about how this is unnecessary! im very dissappointed in my lovely sister sarah... can you believe that every time a tear falls from her eye i run to catch it before it hits the ground and she has yet to come down and see me and not only that shes a crappy caller backer! now on to my next complaint.. the morning sickness is back and we are not friends!!! oh and its fourth of july weekend and that means that there is a storm brewing in the bownds household! we fight every year on the fourth because dustin is wreckless and selfish with his time and fireworks!! this year will be no different i can assure you.. oh oh and my whole family is headed off to vacation it up while i lay on my booty... it is so sad!!! but everyone reading, dry your eyes and dont cry for me because one day i will be back among the living and will have a rockin body that will make all my family jelous and then i will take my baby and vaca it up at an amazing location and leave them at home!! and no they are not invited to my get a way and they are not invited to my pitty party either! i hope tomarrow will be better

Mission Accomplished

This is my latest and greatest creation! This onesie is sold to a special little girl that turns one this July and i hope she loves it! I have been meaning to learn how to make items like this for my store and me and my mom finally sat down to work on it! I enjoyed spending time with her learning my machine and learning how to sow on hers as well. I don't get to see her much this summer so i stayed up WAY past my bed time this evening to spend time with her and do artsy things with our sowing/embroidery machines! It was alot of fun and i know my sisters are jealous! Mission Accomplished! HA HA HA

my one and only

Introducing my one and only! It's funny how i have been feeling him kick and dance around in my tummy and now that i kinda see him in this picture i love him even more. I never knew i could love someone this much its like nothing else matters! It has been hard to be on bed rest but i would do anything for this boy!

Dear Canyon,
I promise that i will always try to make you the happiest little boy on earth! We will play everyday and it will never get boring. You will be my heart and my best friend. I will be here as you grow and support every decision you make and when you make wrong choices i will try to help you get back on the right path. You will have people come and go in your life but no matter what i am here to stay! There will be days that you love me, days you dont like me and days where you wish i would leave you alone (so sad!) and we will make it throught all the good times and all the bad! I love you so much and can not wait to hold you in my arms, dance around the house, play ball, and just watch you grow! See you soon baby.
I love you,
Mommy

While all my family is having fun together in dallas im headed to the beach!! okay not really but i have been thinging about going into my closet..finding my bikini, putting it on, laying on the couch, closing my eyes and imagining that this picture will be the view from my couch! Wishful thinking i know but if i have to lay around all day i can dream im somewhere more amazing than the couch! Ahhhhh i need a beach in my back yard.

Well, me and dustin and my mom went to a 3-d sonogram yesterday moning! I was very excited and loved seeing my little boy! He really is a cutie even though the images were very fuzzy. I still dont know which one of us he looks like more but im leaning more towards ME! I guess we will see in a few weeks. My whole family is at market trying to get more inventory for mine and sarahs stores! Its a bummer for me because last market i was in the hospital being sick sick sick with canyon and this time im on bed rest with canyon! BOOOOOOOO! But i hope they are having fun and im anxious to see what they get and home much of my money is out the door! Oh gosh that makes me stressed!

ME!!!

So, since i haven't got to get out of the house in a while i thought i would put an updated picture of myself because i dont want anyone to forget what i look like! Ha... as you can see i have gained a bit of weight since last time you saw me. I also have not been able to have my hair done in a while so it is CRAZY! You cant tell in the picture but if i was standing it would be completely obvious that one of my boobs is larger than the other one and if that isnt bad enough, my pregnant belly has gotten so very large that i have a very hard time shaving my legs!!! Oh gosh i hope i get it all together after Canyon gets here!! So depressing!!!!!!

Fathers day!!

Today is Dustins very first fathers day!! HAPPY FATHERS DAY! He is going to be a great dad and I can't wait to watch Dustin and my little boy do MAN things together! I was thinking yesterday how blessed i am to be having a little boy because no longer am i gonna have to help mow, set post, or any kind of man activity. Although i may feel a little left out of all the chores one day.... i think ill manage! Ha, this is a great day and i can't wait for all the many fathers days to come!
Love you babe

Thats my daddy!! I am very blessed to have a daddy like this! He is the greatest. Hes always there for me and my sisters no matter what. We have never wated are needed anything that my dad did not get us. He made it really hard on our husbands because they will never live up to the man we call DAD. I am so greateful for the love he has shown me and for the lessons him and my mom taught me in life! The have shown me how to love, how to handle situations and how to never take anything for granted. This blog can not even explaine a tenth of how much i love him but my sisters blog says it all! She did so good and hit the hammer right on the nail with how she explained him! We love you so much daddy!

I love you dad!

Oh Boy!!! Today me and Dustin got to have a little fun and watch Jake!! He is so cute and fun that we are tired from laughing and giggiling at all his funny faces that he makes at us. We started the day off by playing with a tea set that makes lots of noise! Then we made our way over to the pink bouncy cow. Jake really enjoyed it until that silly cow started to buck. But hes a true cowboy because he got right back on and showed that cow who was BOSS!!

After we got tired of the cow we let Riley and Honeybun in to play. Jake loved the dogs and he was so good with them! We had a great time and we love him so much!! He makes me and dustin look forward to our little man playing around here!

Yesterday we got out new toy home and we started to work! I thought i would share one of our sons first monogrammed items!!

I have been a bad patient today and have spent alot of time out of bed today! I desperatly need some fresh air. I love to walk ouside my house and check on my beautiful flowers that were planted last year. I am going to be just like my dad and be so obsessed with flowers that im going to go broke but i will have amzing flower beds! Ha, i know they miss me watering them daily because my husband is not so great at it!!! I just thought i wouls share this photo because it makes me happy and hopefully it will strike a smile in someone else as well.

Today i woke up having very small contractions... i wonder if Canyon knows that he consumes my every though he does not need to make himself know every single morning with either nausea

or contractions! Ha , so i am begining to wish that he was in his own bed and not inside my tummy..i cant wait to see my little man! Oh i love him so very much.

I also woke up this morning to the smell of rain. It has rained all night and its been amazing and i hope it continues through out the day. The only down fall about the rain is if it thunders i have to listen to my scaredy cat DOGS bark like crazy because not only are they afraid of the dark, they are also afraid of loud noises and lightening. Hilarious!

I am about to disobey the doctor and get out of the house for a bit and go get my monogramming machine! I am so excited to start learning how to run it and most moms put their childs name on the inside tag of the shirt but not me... no one will forget Canyons name because it will be posted in real big cute lettering acrosss his back or chest in every outfit! Funny i know but im just an excited proud momma to be. Can you blame me? I have been through it all and cant wait for the blessing that comes at the end of this all and just keeps comming!!

Love

So, here i am!!! I just found out how to do this so i have alot of catching up to do. I thought this picture would be perfect for my blog today because i am having a terrible day. I am having them more frequently now a days (hopefully due to the pregnancy hormones and dreaded bed rest, kinda gets a girl down.) On my bad days these are the people i turn to to make me happy again! My mom is amazing and i love her so much.. she has been gone from me on and off for weeks and i miss her being here on a day to day basis, but i do understand that im not the only person who needs her in this world. Holly is here and she really does try to make things better and i appreciate her for that. Shes a great sister and she makes beautiful babies! Her boys are so cute and can make any day brighter... but being on bed rest i dont get out much to see my Jake and im sad! Sarah is my cookie and always trys to make things seem better than they really are. It often gets her in trouble with me but she trys! Hannah is my heart and shes so helpful but shes off playing at the park with mom and dad. Gracie is so stinkin cute and sweet.. makes me sad that i dont get to see her smiling face daily!! i know im not supposed to be but i am very jelous of each of them because they all see eachother often...and i am here stuck with my husband! Ha

So, let me just say that bed rest sucks!!! I try not to be negative because i love this little baby growing inside of me and i want him to take his time and get big and healthy befor he makes his apperance but i am having a hard time just waiting! I am extremly impatient and emotional on a regular basis just inagine how it is now!! My poor family has to put up with my every emotion wich is mostly crying. And i am not one to just cry a little when i cry i cry like a big baby wikth the convulsions and all its getting rediculous! Oh and i own a baby boutique that is completely being neglected due to all the drama i always have going on in my life. I always wonder if anyone elses life is as dramatic as mine or if i just bring it on myself???

On the brighter side of life... You guessed it... Im having a baby!!! His name will be Canyon Scott and he is due September 28. I am so excited not only to get out of the house next week but i get to finally see what my little baby looks like!! For the last 6 months he is this amazing baby that i do love but he has no face and i bet he is tired of me not knowing what he looks like! I just hope that he is as cute as my niece and nephews. I will write tomarrow telling about more but i dont want to overwhelm my MANY READERS with a book just because im bored! ha ha

Newbie!!

i am a newbie to the blogging world, so i thought I would just give you a quick run down on who i am. Where do i start? My name is Katy, i am married to a great guy who is amazing to me when he wants to be! I have an awesome family that just keeps growing. My favorite things to do is to hang out with hannah, gracie,jake, ky, and ky-leigh. They always have something funny to say!!! I just opened a baby boutique and am loving every minute of it (except the whole working part). Thankfully i am done with school but i wouldn't mind going back! I love to go on cruises and hopefully dustin will take me again soon.I don't spell very good. I talk alot and listen alot. I don't really like drama, but its okay if i'm not in it, i just like to know what is going on with others. My friends are amazing and i hope i am as good of a friend to them as they are to me. I wish i was more friendly and not so intimidated by others. I love sleeping and watching movies in bed! I don't really like crowded places, i kinda have a fear of crowds.. that or i just don't like letting people see me when I'm in an ugly outfit! i never have anything cute to wear. I love wearing high heels but my jeans shrink so often i look like a muffin top waiting on a flood! hehe